I'm a pretty self aware chick, thank you very much. I know what I'm good at, I know what I like to do, but I haven't found something that I love. Some people say that you have to love your work, and that really freaks me out! Just like a lot of my peers, I've got post-grad blues and it's hard to work through, especially when I can't point to any one thing keeping my sanity.
I hear a lot of "Just find something, then find out what you love to do later!" Those same people have yet to find what they love, so I think they're trying to convince themselves of their words more than me. Ugh, where is my drive, my passion?! I've never had discipline, or hustle, ever. It's embarrassing! When will it be my turn to say, "This is what I'm supposed to do. Here is where I belong," then put my all into it? In my wildest dreams, I'll be doing something, then BAM! God will tell me that my search is over. In the meantime, I'll keep pushing...but I really don't know what to do until I reach the other side.
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