Scripture tells us that there’s a time and season for everything.
Old folks tell us that if we want God to laugh, we should tell Him our plans.
I planned to date a few people just to get back in the game.
I planned that over time, one would gradually progress into a serious relationship.
I planned to use this serious relationship to ask myself some tough questions about what my future looks like in terms of marriage and family structure.
I didn’t plan to love him.
Him?
For the sake of this post we’ll call him Moe.
I met Moe in November. We vibed exchanged numbers but we just missed each other in our attempts to follow up. Fast forward to early February, we see eachother again at an event on campus. We still vibe but this time we actually save numbers and follow up with one another.
*God’s Plan*
It’s been an honor to connect with someone so whole, kind, ambitious, caring, funny, sweet, endearing, personable and just wonderful.
We talk about dreams, goals, family and friends. We laugh about the latest pop culture sensations and enjoy listening to all kinds of music. I knew it was real when we took our first road trip together and at the end of it, I was still sad to leave him. I couldn’t sleep in the car on the way back because that just seemed like a waste of an opportunity to be with him.
Soon he’ll leave and begin his next chapter in life. I know I love him because my only wish is for him to continue to grow, thrive, and live a life full of love and joy. I have no interest in “locking him down”. If he called me tomorrow and said he never wanted to see me again, I’d be okay.
This relationship has restored me in a way I didn’t think was possible. I’m experiencing a real example of a love without struggle. When I look towards the future, I have hope and restored faith in love, in being loved.
I can’t help but think that my time to myself prepared me for this. That time away from dating and romance and sex was like a rebirth. Being with Moe is my awakening.
Thanks Moe.
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