Dear Mommy,
Thank you so much for having me. Thank you for your unconditional love, for your acceptance, and your desire to bond. Your confidence in me is unmatched, and your prayers for me do not go unnoticed. Thank you for all of the picnics, the nature walks, the in-home spa days and home cooked meals. Thank you for respecting my maturity as a child and cultivating it. How I hit the jackpot with you, I’ll never know.
Dear Mommy,
You were never like other moms. You let me skip school if I wanted to, you bring home stray animals as pets (and stray people as friends), and you talked to me about sex way earlier than most parents do. I’m sorry for not always embracing your quirks like I should. Sometimes I think “she is such a troublemaker, moms aren’t supposed to be this way”, but there’s no rule book to motherhood! Just the other day, you were trying to learn dances that kids do nowadays. I like that about you; the theatrics aren’t for making everyone else happy, you do it for yourself.
Dear Mommy,
Why didn’t you get help for me when you got divorced from Daddy? All day long, all you did was sleep...I had to take care of myself and my sister. I hated her, and I hated you and Daddy too. I used to yell and hurt her so much, because I was angry and didn’t know what to do. Why did you try to die when we were still in the house? What if it worked and we found you? Why did you let it get so bad? I was only eleven years old. I can only thank God when you finally snapped out of it.
Dear Mommy,
You are a resilient woman whom I admire more than you’ll ever know. I can’t wait to do as much as for you as you’ve done for me. I can’t wait to raise my daughters even better than you raised me. Our relationship is complicated and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to fully explain it, but maybe each letter will help get me closer...
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